I have a problem and I know it.
As you can imagine, like most pregnant women, I was hoping for an early baby. And being the Time-Nazi that I am, I was as prepared as any person can be for the arrival of this babe. The nursery is all set up. The bassinet is ready to go. I have some meals in the freezer. I have clothes, diapers, wipes, and all those other necessities. Each Saturday I clean my house (again... seeing how I usually clean it on Monday or Tuesday) "just in case" the baby comes on a Sunday. I did another quick run to the grocery store on Saturday for some fresh produce. I have food, the birthing tub, and my midwife's number in my cell phone. I just don't have a baby.
My due date is tomorrow. Tuesday. March 22nd. I have a midwife appointment tomorrow afternoon--an appointment that I had hoped not to go to. So I haven't even hit my actual due date yet (a date that I KNOW is an estimate and that MANY babies come safely and healthy well after it), and I'm already worrying about going two (or more) weeks late.
It's a vicious cycle.
I feel extremely grateful that I still feel, for the most part, good. I haven't had to endure swelling, stretch marks (yet), back pain, waddling, etc. I still am able to enjoy my daily yoga and walks. But now that several friends (who were due after me) have had their babies , I'm beginning to get a little annoyed.
To top it off, I'm really bored. I don't have much to do (again, thanks to my OCD-over-preparedness disease). Sure, there are things I could do. But the truth is I'm ready to jump into this next stage of my life.
There really isn't much point to this blog... just needed to vent my impatience. It could be a long two weeks. And while I think April is a lovely time to have a baby, I really don't want to have an April baby.
Dear Chaos,
If you really are my child you will come NOW.
Thanks so much.
Love always,
Mom
5 comments:
I AM SO SORRY. I know this feeling all too well. The boredom, the annoyance, the not-wanting-to-make-any-plans-because-you-might-have-a-baby-that-would-throw-off-said-plans... it's so frustrating. I say... go out on as many special dates with your hubby as you can, and take lots of naps or do lots of yoga. And... just know that every single baby HAS BEEN BORN... they are physically unable to stay in there forever, or so I'm told. :)
Um... if he/she is already defying you, you just might be in for it. :o)
But, I'm still sorry. Curtis took me to a lot of movies before Abby.
Bless you! Perhaps the baby will actually cure you of your "early-itis." Chuckle.
Good luck with all!
Hang in there hoping he/she comes soon.. and maybe he/she is being sent to teach you something .. and I am sure it is not the first time sad to say .. like when you have a major blow out walking out the door...
Good Luck lady let us know and keep us posted...
I was just thinking that if the baby takes after Daddy, April 1st will be the baby's choice of birthdays. Afterall, you both have great senses of humor.
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