This isn't to say that my life is uneventful, I just sometimes view it that way. Isn't it crazy how you can look at your life and begin to categorize it as one thing or another? You put an idea in your mind that something about you life is a particular way, and then it's hard to get out of that mindset.
Take, for example, my job. The first two years of my job were so amazing. I loved it. I remember driving home each day (a good 45-50 minute commute, mind you) thinking, "Wow. I can't believe I get paid to do this." Of course the pay wasn't very much, but it was thrilling to be getting paid to do something I absolutely loved.
Now, last year and this year I am "full time." Meaning, I don't have to drive back and forth between two different schools. I don't have to have prayer be my only source of health insurance because I actually get benefits. I teach less, get paid more than twice as much... and yet, somewhere along the line something in my brain has determined that this job just isn't "it." And I feel quite unsettled about where I am.
The past few weeks have actually been really great. I've enjoyed my classes. My students are fantastic. I am teaching Bartenieff stuff again! I don't have to stay too late on most days (and on some days I'm done at noon... no joke). So I'm trying to figure out this unsettled feelings that I have around my job. I'm hoping I will figure it out in the next little while. Fingers crossed. :)
In other news... I am happy to report that there is absolutely no unsettled feelings about my upcoming marriage. I am so beyond thrilled, and feel so lucky to have found such an amazing person to share my life with. Not only do we have loads of fun, but I feel myself progressing as a person every day that I am with him.
And in other news still... I like where I live. I hate allergies. AND I get to see "Wicked" while in Chicago in a few weeks! Wahoo!!!
6 comments:
First off... WOO HOO cause I'm also seeing Wicked in few weeks. In fact three weeks from this past Tuesday, I'll be sitting in the Gershwin theatre in New York!!
Second off... I think you should post more. I told Sarah that I am sometimes amazed how much she and I can post since we are neither married or mothers.
I like your posts, you should do it more often!! I bet you are the best dance teacher at BYU and they're lucky to have you, no matter what you decide to do. (You're still at BYU, right?) :) See you in two weeks and one day! Yay!
I think your life is way beyond exciting with millions of things to talk about! I wish you would post more also.
I love Wicked! Good times. Also, I had fun at your bridal shower!
Robin, on the subject of your life I have to say that usually when people ask me about my life I always end up talking about all the way cool and totally rad things my friends are doing-- that almost always includes you. PS, i am excited to come to your wedding!
robi, we'll be in chicago for christmas this year...just fyi. in case you decide to spend the holidays with the in-laws...
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